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Wednesday, October 14, 2009

happy 9th mth to us dear! OMG! it's jus 1 more mth to be able to recieve the biggest love evr given! so hoping for that! really hope dear will be jus lik herself when its our 1st mth. it was so memorable tt i's forevr etched in my mind. i'll always love u from the bottom of my heart and put u on e top of my mind, be it how bad u treat me. love is patience, lov is kind. i really nd u to be eternity mine. i cant do w/o u... mis n love u lots dear. hav an early sleep ya? drink water efore u sleep to prevent dehydration e moment u wake up from sleep. ccover urself wif banket well ya?p.s. it's ok tt u cant celebrate wif me. i'm fine wif it. as long as u're safe n sound, i'm contented. XD

love,
-jwell-

with loves, 10:18 PM

Thursday, September 17, 2009

feeling so giddy...! sucks.
onli noe how to S n S... wat else can i do? am i doing not enough? i really do feel lik giving up. 10th mth? can i wait this long? olevel coming up. here i am slacking everyday. ytd bloody got gastric, cant even walk. today also! sucks man. then in sch tio taiji by LFS! but dm chew gd enof, stil care for me. i really lov ytd tt msg, very long did not rrecieved it ady. tot tt our bgr got hope n tot i can have true heart before 10th mth. holding tt glimpse of hope, but u diminished it in the end. is there still anyone who does still love me wif all her heart? if have, plx tell me, i wana giv all my heart to tt prson. owaz fell in love wif the person tt i truly lov, but true lov not recieved. n i owaz hurt e ppl who deeply lov me, but i cant do anything to prevent the hurt or to minimise it. wat is wrong wif my life? need pay $30 for drinking n $25.49 for library book. i still wana get ipod touch, guess wallet for her plus couple ring. most probably i'll onli buy it when she truely love me wif all her heart. feeling so insecure everyday, also afraid to fall in lov wif another gurl tt i shouldnt. why am i getting all emo? does crying help? does S-ing, whack walls, n doin my routine stuffs to minimise my hurt help? i really duno. i feel lik giving up everything, but chew pulled me up from the mouth of self-destruction. so lucky. got bloody gastric again. i hate her for always giving me hope n then pulverising it totally. i took lots of effort courage to pluck myself up from this hurt n it's not easy, but it's effortless to break it down. mr chew told me: "joel, persevere and it'll be a success for u". but how do i start? whenevr i'm bout to get ready, something will trip me over n i'm so afraid to fall agian tt i do not wish to stand any longer.
i noe u're born with a silver spoon, parents, relatives stuffing gifts or even wads of notes so tt u're able to enjoy n show off in the place of candies or pretty dolls lik wat other ppl hav. much to my dismay n others as well as u, i noe tt u've been hurt very deeply n ur happiness was short-lived. but wat bout me? i believe u're not worse off than me n here i am, appearing in front of u, being ur guardian angel, protecting u, trying my best to giv u the happiness u had before but u simply denied them, taking me for granted. u admitted them too, but did u do anything to minimise the hurt u did to me? i don think so. in front of ur friends, u literally trat me as if i'm the one who offended u n deserved to get reprimanded n accept insults from u, pushing all the blame n responsibility to me. think bout it. i do not even bear to scold u at all, but wat u onli noe is to roar at me n everything. seroiusly, i don deserve it. tt's wat i treat ppl n my big families, but i don anymore cause i noe the implications n it's very devastating!

joying: joel is mad! eu noe who did this to him?
ahhong: yeah! tat girl!!!
joel: nvm, as long as she's happy, i'm contented...

there's no free lunch in this world. i think i've decided not to hav dinner nor any meal if i can from nw on. i need to save money. besides tt, whenevr i'm hurt or angry, i'll get indulged on food n munchingon it n turn plump. but nw i wana turn slim as well as be the muscle man once ppl knew me about...

with loves, 5:27 PM

Saturday, September 5, 2009

don like to quarrel wif her. but she lik forcing me can? i noe she doesnt want it and its like indirectly lor. waited for her hrs n she wait till she finish her band then tell me to go home. can u ppl imagine how i feel?! it's devastating! infuriating n everything! fuck man! u guys shud noe i hate to use vulgarity but i'm rly damn frustrated. i mis my friend, very close friends. i mis all of u! nabei! just don push me to the corner where i jus heckcare my future n do the stuffs i hate to do an its stupid. wana die. but tks my little friend for telling me not to die. i appreciate it alot. although i'm not very close with u, but u touched my heart. thanks man. i'd lik to say tks to jie n kor for supporting me morally for eveything n bring me to christ. although i may not be a gd christian, not showing a good testimony to ppl, but i'm trying my best.
i seriously feel lik commiting suicide or do the stuffs which offend the law. this minuscule life of mine is so fuck up. i noe ur eng good la. so? do i giv a damn? u're always looking down on me. i noe i suck. deep down in my heart has a crack. waiting for u to mend it, but u tried ur best to split open my spectum n it's very hurting, its jus lik a surgeon using a surgical knife to pierce through my fast-beating, zealous heart. this insidious problem spreads to my whole body without u noticing, causing great damage to my body system. i was perpetually disabled by lots of stuffs. life is so meaningless. i onli noe one thing is tt i'm born not to have wat i wany or need, but rather actually a need to make fellowship with god. i read this in kor house. i thought tt i cant live life w/o u. but then again, i remembered albert einstein once said,"only a life lived for others is a life worthwhile". that aptly described how i should live. woman are nth but trouble, the cause of everything. in living for others, i should live for myself in the best way possible, not by hurting myself or do stupid stuffs that are not worthwhile.
hope u'll nv read it. i don wish u to get hurt. jus leave all the hurt to me. as long u live happily, i'm contented. if god can be gracious n unselfish, so can i!
i cant sleep. just stop all ur attitude. it's not working. its pissing the ppl ard u. i realise u oso 2-faced. treat ur friends with smiles. but me? having fever, running nose, heavy coughs for these past almost a week, feeling so lethargic, etc. i jus treat nth happen to me so that i don wana u worry too much. i'm always the one who giv in to u, since when will it be ur turn? nvm. why am i saying all these? wth. u wont treat me lik wat i want. keep dreaming, joel chin! tt day will never come...

with loves, 11:46 PM

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

boo!
here i am, typing and typing like nobody's business on some arsehole's blog.
seesh. this arsehole is a fool. does he ever write in here? guess not.
some arsehole's 'o'levels coming up. and it seems that he doesnt give a shit bout it.
then again, maybe he does.
seesh, when is my noodle ever gonna be cooked and ready? annoying :D
somebodeh whole day or whole week or whole month got tuition. soooo sad.
and here i am, without any tuition :D and with so much time in my hands. i love life. not.
i have nothing to write. i'm just typing cause i feel like typin something.
seesh, he needs to buck up on his english and math. scarly fail[touch wood] then he cannot go anywhere. then i will start laughing my ass out. hah. kidding.
i wanted to type something, but now i cant remember what.
serious short term memory lossness. hah.
my enlish is the best, from the bottom.
i need to type something, anything. seesh.
gosh, i am so so so so bored.
somebodeh screams lika girl. its freaking damn hilarious.
i will never forget it. hah.
a scene that will never be forgotten.
i am so fucking bored.
just saw some magic tricks that are like so easy to do :D hahahahah.
finally my noodles are here.
seesh. smells gooood :D

shall get out of this stupid arsehole's blog already.

byebye.

xoxo, some biatch :)

with loves, 1:25 PM

Thursday, August 20, 2009

currently in sch com lab slacking. btw, got to make new friends and more friends. and we have common interest too. feel so bad when dear is sick and i cant do anything for her cuz she don want to. not my fault. why must we quarrel almost everyday?

it's infuriating. but didnt quarrel when she was sick from sat till ytd afternoon. but rather frustrated by the way she do things n how she handle n settle it. the way she treating me is totally unacceptable. why cant she jus put herself in my shoes? if she had EVER considered my feelings for jus a LITTLE bit, things would have been btr... and i'm kind, considerate, thoughtful and forgiving enough to forgive here n giv her a great smile today n things went btr nw. both she and i were late today, but i came sch 1st and i'm the 1st one to die, then her. the way she treat me today is really not treating me as if i'm hers but others.

this morning got a total tongue lashing by mr chew n LFS!!! such carnage devastation was wat we, especially me could evr comprehend. does anyone know wat i'm going through? the person i nd the most and i want this person to uds me is not there for me and does not uds me. felt so hurt n the whole surrounding and our bgr so cold...

may update again at nite...
gtg for recess nw...

with loves, 10:31 AM

Sunday, August 16, 2009

good morning...
ytd was tuition and tuition... then went to cut my hair ard evening. quite nice n well-done man. and i didnt tell dear. wana giv her a surprise, and tt she ant play wif my hair anymore. it not long ady.
i went sentosa wif dear and my cousin on the 9th august which is national day. very happy lor. she owaz don wana go dehrx but nw she suggested it. played a little water. i rly wana play water wif her happily lor, if it's swimming pool then btr, then she wont really mind. haix. y cant she jus giv in to me or why does she don lik to play water? omg... tt's wat she lik to do when she's young la.
hope tt we can hav another one during ur birthday. i'm so freaking frustrated tdy. duno wat's wrong wif me. haix...

with loves, 8:55 AM

Saturday, August 15, 2009

haix... nw at home duno do wat. later 2pm got tuition. don wish to go cuz i very bored n moody. she cant company me tdy and as well as tmr. haix. feel lik dying or sleep for these 2 days then mon start all over. ytd is me n her 7th mth. but i'm not happy at all although i appreciate the fact tt she can company me for a few moments. i feel tt we nd quality time man. we've not been spending our own time tgr for very long ady. i really missed the 1st n 2nd mth we had tgr n e 1st day was the best! i rly wana tt day to happen again where both of us will feel so loved although i noe tt it's impossible n i'm gonna receive a surprise from her. but i think i'm gonna wait, see whether when is she able to giv me tt day again n really wish tt day will be lik everyday.

with loves, 11:29 AM

Thursday, August 13, 2009

nw at my ting house. waiting for de jun and siew shuen to come. haix. so bored and she's bathing nw. argh! nw is a mixed feeling. i'm very excited bout tmr cuz tme is me and dear 7th mth. tt's happy. but sad cuz i cant spend time wif her cuz she got band. haix. band 2 times per week. it's stupid can? and my dear don lik it n she still have to go n it's no choice cuz she section leader and nxt yr got lots of performance.

and she cant company me now. haix. nvm la. but tmr i'm gonna wait for her tmr till she finish band, then i can do my coursework in sch as well. one stone kill 2 birds. then got time then go for scouts slack. then send her home n kind of celebrate wif her by spending all my time for her till she wana go home.

will post again when got time...

with loves, 3:47 PM

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

here to post again. after such a long time. in class using jokel's com. such a joker he is. fancy telling me bout him and his gf stuffs.
btw, i mis audrey lim shi shi! XD i love her so much...
sorry and tks for everything u've done for me. i bet u're going to get jealous of me. hahax! i'm so bored. bio teacher nv come for lesson n i'm having geat time chatting wif jokel. got to go... XD

with loves, 10:26 AM

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

don ever read this! it's jus wasting ur time.

today damn fuck type! went to sch today, then blah blah blah... seriously don hav e energy and don feel lik saying it. i feel totally frustrated nw!
I HATE UR REJECTION! it jus stops me to communicate wif u! seriouly wat evr u're doin nw is totally not working. since young, i HATE ppl to control me. u shud noe e reason why. majority is cuz of my upbringing by parents. and tt's why when anybody or teachers or friends or parents shout at me, i'll retaliate back and i seriously don not care who e person is.
everyone of you beside me tdy r making me exploding. i'm reaching my top soon. whoevr obstruct me or irritates me, don blame me. it's ur unlucky time n day. and thus, i'm not going for the bloody chalet anymore! whoevr control me will confirm kill our relationship! trust me! whoever is it, i will do e same. i'm bursting soon. i gave in too much ady, i do not noe how to let go. so i'll jus have to cut it, removing the nip of e bud! i'm practically keeping everything to myself. no one is there for me to share my troubles with la! and to those or this person i wanna share my troubles with, u jus irritate me or make me don like u for tt moment. or u cant even talk at nite n seriously don get hurt to those who see it n those reading it, u noe who u are. i'm jus venting my frustration. it's a good way. cuz my way of venting anger, frustration, etc is by using vilence and i noe u don lik it. it's my habit from young till nw, fight from young till nw n it's ady inside of me. i'm trying my best to control myself. stop trying to change me or improve me.i feel humiliated. when i feel tt u're not trying to improve me or control me, i'll ask u for advice n how u feel. i tried sacrificing myself to make up the differences we had, i noe it will not work. but however, i'm willing to giv a shot n try my best, so as long as we can improve our relationship. from nw onwards, i realised tt i'm not supposed to sacrifice myself or make big changes for myself or allow my partner to change me, or giv in too much, but rather to make e very little small changes where i can and not affect myself so tt both of us r happy with it and don expect too much in a relationship cuz i noe i wont receive enough of wat i nd or wat i want. i nd time to change too. don rush plz... if u do really love me, accept wat i hav of me. i'll make the changes, don tell me wat to do. don really lik it n sorry tt i hurt u by my words. at least i'm communicating and sharing my feelings to u, so tt we wont cause much misunderstanding. i'm really sorry... n i'm feeling btr nw. misses n lots of loves...

seriously recommend this book to couples! "MEN ARE FROM MARS, WOMEN ARE FROM VENUS" by JOHN GRAY. although this book may be boring as it may repeat and repeat, but it's effective to solve any problems or misunderstandings between couples. this book is a practical guide for improving communication and getting wat u want in ur relationship. it really works! i'm into it! so to this person, if u really wana noe how i feel, u shud consult tt book before speaking to me.


will this hand be removed from this wall, forever be apart n not mended ever again??

with loves, 12:04 AM

Saturday, June 13, 2009

damn sianx... dear got class outing. cannot meet her! so freaking sad! REALLY wanna meet her today! i don mind even if me sending home. i see her i happy le. dunno wat type of transport she want. then lik so troublesome, feel so frustrated. don feel lik meeting her le. then if i suddenly say don meet her, i'm rejecting her then she sad=i heart break. need to wait for her reply. later got tuition, dunno whether can concentrate or not lorx. n i freaking mis her lik anything.
i love every moment and i promise tt i'll cherish every sec baby...
got to go for tuition nw... mis n lov u! aitai!!! aishiteru!!! muackx! XD

with loves, 6:20 PM

Thursday, May 21, 2009

quote of the week!
YOU DUNNO WAT TO ASK BECAUSE YOU DUNNO WAT YOU DUNNO YET!!!
-Lee Chien Chien-

with loves, 3:54 PM


nw at sch doin my f&n work, but onviously i'm not doin n blogging nw. very long nv post. sianx... quarreled wif dear ytd n then afternoon hao le. spent e day wif her to her house, then went to popular buy her book she wanted alot. ate happily, then went home. then suffered with lots of tuition hours from 5.30 to 10.30!!!

then i'll b leaving ard 4 at yew tee wif ahong n joying to jurong point. heard tt he not in gd mood, so i'll b there to make him happy! XD i'm such a kind soul n a innocent boy! then dear ard 7 have band, so i'll leave ard 6.30 then send dear home! so happy lorx! very long nv send her home le.

tmr going to meet her! YEAH! hahax! SHIOCK! going to have fun wif her n rly hope we wont quarrel lorx. then sat cant meet her cuz she goin to celebrate her sis's b'day. then hope sun can meet her again n have more fun cuz she nxt wk got sec 3 camp! goin to mis her alot n hope she'll have fun n take gd care of herself in every ways! dear, u shud noe wat i mean ah?? hahax! going off soon...

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with loves, 3:40 PM

Monday, May 18, 2009

nw at god-bro's house wif god-sis...
enjoying air-con n kor's noodle! ate it le! super shiock! XD then played a little piano n listening to music. i mis dear so much lorx. dear, can u plx don sleep anymore? i wanna chat wif u on the phone! i mis ur sweet voice so much! missing ur hug n kisses too! leaving soon le... gonna wait for dear's sms!
tdy LFS lesson again! argh! but then did my best to do the assignment she told me to do tdy. quite proud of it. it's not tt i wanna be rude to her, but then jus take a 2nd look at her lorx. WTH! nvm... then after sch sent dear back home, then went back to sch for aep. nw still deciding whether to go for nite study or not. i think most prob shud be goin, but seriously pray hard wont get to see her... but i'll stil try my best to complete the geog work i owe her. i promise n this's e promise i've made to my mom n treat LFS wif respect. it's all cuz of her tt me n mom fall out! was rather angry lorx! stupid! jie young bro came too! XD
gtg nw...

with loves, 6:06 PM

Friday, May 15, 2009

today very f-type! ytd told form teacher tt got dental appt, then she called up my mother and told her to change appt date and told the whole class tt we shud not have any appt in the mornin and cant afford to mis out any lesson. argh! do u nOe how i noe? MY MOTHER FORWARD IT TO ME! then teacher went to inform me. told my mother tt i got this adam khoo booster thingy, then got geog class, then maths class! argh!

with loves, 5:18 PM

Thursday, May 14, 2009

stupid man... hate today. tot tt we wont quarrel, but eventually, we did it again. tks 4 everything!!! i really don uds why so stubborn, jus ask u giv me sth which is so small but yet so significant n u jus rejected me. wat's this?? n u promised me sth, but u broke it again. n u stil got the face to tell me not to get disappointed n i'm even more disappointed nw. u very very gd man... owaz lik to spoil the day of every mth. hope tt wont meet u tdy then all the things tt had been imagining in my head will not happen n i don want to. hate this feeling! why do i owaz feel hatred but not lov?? n its especially to someone. i seriously do not want this to happen. i ady told u everything of wat i feel and from bottom of my heart but then i think u forgot ady rite? still can ignore me. u gd la... don think u need me ady... can go find someone else. i don mind. u owaz lik to avoid things. don blame me if i do sth which breaks u down. i gave everything ady, but u? alot ppl tell me don care bout u le but then i peresevered. in the end i was wrong. u can giv me, not tt u cant, or not tt its inconvenient, or not tt is impossible, it's jus tt u DO NOT WANT! if everybody based on feelings and live wif life, then i oso live wif it, there's no such thing called relationship anymore. i tried to uds u, but did u? why cant u even giv me e most basic support i need? so freaking emo n i don wish to. nvm la. forget it lorx. i'll wait and see on how u'll take the steps to mediate the whole thing. i tried ady. too tired to continue. if u don do anything, i don see the reason to really continue on anymore. really feel lik giving up. read my blog so wat? did u even bother to do anything or not? mayb i see a little, but really not enof n u can do btr. jus giv ur bloody best la...
anyways, hope u hav a happy 4th mth... i dunno whether i'll be happy or not. not lik i care but ya... jus think b4 u doing anything lorx.

btw, chatted wif K n XY this morning... i was wondering wat happen to K. since ytd til this morning, i somehow can feel the wierdness feeling inside my heart n it's so uncomfortable. K, i'm so worried bout u noe? i noe may not see my blog, i don care much but then jus cant help thinkin bout u n worrying bout u. XY, e rest depends on u le... hope both of u are doing well in ur 2 papers tdy. JYJY!!! XD

nw stuck at sch com lab doin f&n coursework. then going to stay back in sch from lik morniing till 9pm at nite. haix... hell is here real soon. so bloody stress wif everything but no one uds me. mayb i'm ganna live my own life. really damn disappointed in u...

with loves, 10:16 AM

Friday, May 8, 2009

tdy can be the worst day evr in my life! AUDREY LIM!!! i'll rmb u! i'll nv forget the hurt u inflicted in me. i'll nv forgive u la! so watif i said vulgarities? u forced me to say them. i think our separation will onli make those ppl u don lik happy... u shud noe wat i mean. and don be stupid la! i wont find any other gurl anymore le la! i hate gurls!!! all gurls are all the same! fucking bitchy! jus lik LFS!!! i jus nd a freaking listening ear, a warm hug and a loving shoulder to lean on. i learnt this recently and i bet u wont even look at tis or even bother bout it. or u may not even look at my blog...

"IT IS THE GREATEST BLESSING TO FIND SOMEONE YOU TRULY LOVE, SO CHERISH THE RELATIONSHIP. NO MATTER WAT HAPPENS, DO NOT GIVE UP! AS LONG AS WE LOVE ANOTHER PARTY, ANY PROBLEM BETWEEN EA OTHER CAN BE SOLVED..."

u jus dunno wat is love... maybe we're not destinied to br tgr. u can bearwif their bad stuffs, but u jus cant stand mine which i think i'm much btr than them and i jus freaking say somewords n u forced me to. wat's this man?!
i think i'll live even btr than before w/o u. so jus hope u can live btr w/o me lorx... and i've ady fallen in lov wif another gurl le... maybe bahrx. i dunno...
u don hav to care anyway. ur not mine n i'm not urs anymore. i belong to myself, to god and myb another soon,i dunno... living in emoness...

-joel-

with loves, 11:27 AM

Thursday, May 7, 2009

nw having f&n lessons... damn sianx. teacher not here lehrx. started from 2.45 till 4.45... then went to meet audrey at mac study wif her, then teach her for her mid-yr, then go back sch for nite class at 6 to 9pm. damn bored n it's killing me! jus ended talking wif my very very best gurl friend, KALA!!! XD chatted happily wif her almost every single day... made her laugh lik hell lik a witch. owaz say wanna sleep. really lik a fr5eaking pig lorx! stupid pig! i'll rmb u!!! XP

then i made her to make sure when once she wake up, she must straight away call me and my motive is to hear her dumb way of talking lik a zombie! hahax! pray god she doesnt see this man. if not i'll die when i see her. then joon howe aka joo koon looking at wat i'm typing. so stupid n got nth to do! then rest of friends playing dota, or hear songs or playing other games which are lik so lame lorx. hahax! XD

hope teacher doesnt suddenly barge in the room, if not i'll rush n not publish it... then took some pics of mildred and yanru. will post it of their unglam photos if they disturb or sabo, or create storm acc, then upload and show whole singapore! XD
got to go now... ppl and friends, tc and once again, all e best n jy for ur mid-yr! XD

love,
-joel-

with loves, 4:35 PM

Saturday, April 25, 2009

today wake up damn late sia! then missed my cip that i am supposed to go with dexter, joon howe, etc. but then wee keong oso nv go,then oso nv care much. then joon howe say ur scouts very weird, say going for the cip, then in the end to no avail... so horrendous! then nehmind...

prepared for my amaths tuition at 12 to 1.30, then quickly rushed to jurong point for another tuition from 2 to 3.30. then went to meet dear. dear was not feeling gd, so companied her n let her rest beside while i was eating. decided to eat tgr dehrx, but... nvm larx. dear happy n comfortable can le. XD then i wana send her home, on the way to bus interchange, saw friends... n more friends... hahax! SHIOCK! then took bus all the way to cck, then to her condo. had great time man. dear very long nv rested on my shoulder for a long period le. did many stuffs. then send her home. she send me this:Baobei, really thanks for taking care of me just now. melt my heart sia! really did sth damn noble for her! XD hope can meet her tmr lorx. mis her alot! i nd her!


OMG! That's so romantic man! XD


stupid chubby pig; 汉堡包!!! =x

hope dear gets better by tmr morning then can meet her and gonna play wif her. got to sleep nw. tmr got tuition. sianx... mis n lov u dear! muackx! muackx! muackx! aishiteru! aitai! XD

with loves, 10:33 PM

Friday, April 24, 2009

damn sianx larx... blog rotting, myself oso rotting ady. rusting le! today nv go sch. got dental appt. then mother wake me up ask me go sch, then i don1. but then i quite guai, slept abit, then pack my homework, go sch hand in after my appt. the dentist say nd take x-ray and maybe nd to hav operation to pull my stuck adult tooth. then after go sch, went de jun house, bought 2 burgers for my uncle n cousin, then went to meet dear.

finally can eat mcwings le. n i studied at mac wif her everyday, then for the past 3 days hav been eating mac. sianx man. scared fat. so after tt went to lot1 study, then slack. i very gd to my dear. she said tt she nd graph paper, so i went ard almost the whole library to ask ppl for it, but to no avail. she didnt noe about it oso. tt can show how much i lov her le bahrx? XD slack le then decided to watch movie. watched "17 again" ... show was rather nice, planning to watch again cuz got a little confused. mayb cuz did many things in the theatre n i don wish to eleborate much.

then after movie slack a while. but during the time i step inside lot1, saw many dunearn ppl. they were all lik staring at me duno for wat. mayb they think tt i'm my bro, or tis is joey's bro... then homed...

with loves, 11:15 PM

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

stuck in sch com lab... post for fun. very long nv post liao... nw dear having maths test. wish all the best to her and of possible score full marks!! XD dear i lov u! muackx!!! XD

with loves, 11:48 AM

Thursday, February 12, 2009

soz guys tt didnt post ferr very very long le... cuz i'm really busy wif many many stuffs... soz 4 everything... anyways, busy nw preparing for o levels, everyday hav to stay back for extra lesson n i'll finish everything bout 6plus then i'll go home.

i think i'll end here... when i'm free again, i'll post more stuffs

with loves, 9:02 PM

Friday, December 19, 2008

hi... back to post again. a few days which is ard bet e dec holidays ago sold ice-cream again. yarx. hahax! e day before, me n relatives went places n places... really had a great time of my life! 1st, all meet at city hall mrt station, then went 2 singapore flyers... these r some of photos taken...
P.S:special thanks 2 cameraman, my 5th uncle!!! he rocks dude! muahaha...


cousins world! XD me below, not top... =x


me in brown slippers, ci hui, aunt, ci hui's sis, yu teng, wai kit, joey, darryl, terence, siew shuen, thiery, 5th uncle, min huei. (clockwise)


every1 givin a jiao bin look! humph!


Get high man!!! XD


once i wish upon a irregular star...

before we are going to start to sell our ice-cream,tis bloody hell thing jus happened to us n delayed 30mins of our life! well, i think i'm at fault oso. i'm e 1 who shake e lift n it jus stopped! omg! wat a day! but we were spendin our time there happily n not afraid at all, we played wif the door, also urinated on the wall. so disgusting... but sadly didnt take our pics tgr as a memory.


cool man! 1st time evr in my life...!


we spat saliva on the wall n pasted our artpiece on it! Eww!!!

with loves, 1:12 AM


Hi Scouts,

I know most of you are bored at home due to the long extensive break ahead. Anyway, Sec 1 Registration is here again and it is a good opportunity to use this time to informally recruit new members within our unit! Below are the details:

Sec 1 Registration [19th Dec] - Compulsory for ALL Sec 1 Venue: Unity Secondary
Duration: 0700hrs to 1400hrs
Attire: Full-U
I/C: Mr Tsia
Notes:
- This is a compulsory event for ALL Sec 1. Last year, it was this year's sec twos who did it, so this time round, the sec ones (you guys are going to be seniors soon) will take charge.
- Please report to Mr Tsia in your full uniform.
- Do take a good breakfast before arriving in school. Please be punctual.
- Sec 2s who are free and can volunteer their time are also welcome to help out.

Yours in Scouting,
-APL/QM/JM/CW Joel-

with loves, 1:05 AM

Monday, December 15, 2008

i this few days nv post le... sianx...
cuz very busy earnin money n playing...
i did flyers again, doin 4000 pieces wif bro, darryl n terence cousins we started from 6pm till 4plus am finishing e work. then we oso slept at some1's house outside e sofa. sleep till damn sweet can?! then got woken up by owner. so sia suay... -.- oso spend time wif hui xian goin her house n hav great fun!!! went out wif shu huey n sent her home, etc...
jus a few days ago, i changed another job by selling ice-cream...
i went to bugis 2 get orders by supplier buying at $4/block of ice-cream, selling it at $10/block. hahax! scammer! but then got sell $9 n $12 oso... not bad sia. then i bought 17blocks n total profit gotten is ard 50 dollars n still got 4 blocks left in my freezer.

2days ago, i got 2appointment man... 1st is bbq party wif relatives s a farewell party for my cousins leavin singapore back to malaysia, nxt is cherri birthday bbq at pasir ris n had 2 rounds of meals! shiock! XD then ytd is my pri sch class chalet. ton e whole nite n had vodka 40% vol! rough nite i had man... did many many things enjoy lik hell lorx. plsyed bowling oso n best player but very lousy lehrx, standard drop, onli get 122. haix...

today came back from chalet, then slept from pasir ris back 2 boon lay, then shopped at jurong point wif wan ying, chen min, darren n wei nian n went home. after tt, went home bathed n went 2 find hui xian at her father shop at market ridin my bike. then went home le... so tired lorx, feel lik sleepin man, eyes closing le... i goin sleep nw... byes...

with loves, 6:28 PM

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Last night I had a happy dream
This dream is all I evr think of
In this dream I opened an umbrella
I was courageous
Walking along e busy street wif u

Suddenly u held my hand tightly
You must hav felt me trembling
You whispered in my ear
Telling me ur feelins
It turned out tt our feelings 4ea other were mutual

I 12 meet u nw
Wanna call u
But I was courageous only in my dream
Watching a movie wif u
Singing KTV tgr
It wud brighten up my world

I really 12 meet u nw
If u wud agree
I will try 2 make my dream a reality
Embracing u on e street
Not caring bout wat others think
For u are my dream 4evr n evr
Specially made 4u
Hope u'll lik it

with loves, 11:07 AM


ytd after my scouts, then went 2 eat dinner wif sir n e rest, then went home ard 8 plus. so i continued 2 giv out flyers door to door again n end up finishin my 2000pcs at 12midnite. so shack man!
then chatted wif shu huey while doin, lik do very fast man n chat from full batt to 2 out of 7 bars n went 2 sleep. then ltr on chat wif hui xian laopo till no batt. sianx! ate my dinner cum supper after my more than 1hr bath which i bathed 2times tgr watchin tv n chattin wif huixian. then i use house phone call her mahrx, but 2bad oso talk till no batt le, so both went 2 sleep liao. but ate potato chips 1st n went 2 bed n slept ard 2.40...

today mornin chatted wif shu huey sha gua on e phone... i damn sianx can?! my cousin siew shuen talk to me on msn n told me tt she goin watch chihuahua today! OMG! i ask her whether can go along or not, then she say all gurls, so nv go. hui xian oso go out wif joanne chio bu. then shu huey goin shoppin wif her gurl friends at plaza sing. really duno how 2 spend my day today, or mayb rather rot at home...
nvm... ltr ask wenghong cousin whether he free or not... bb.......................

with loves, 10:39 AM

Monday, December 1, 2008

haix... bein woken up by my maid at 7.25am... WTF! i'm lik still sleepin larx! slept at ard 1.30am n woke up again at 4.10am, nw again. damn sianx man... then ltr hav 2 bring my grandfather home cuz he stay my house mahrx. i really duno y must so early lorx. haix... then i'll b havin scouts at 3pm, so after sendin my grandfsther home, i'll b spendin time givin out fliers 2 every door which is my new job @ $25/1000pcs. where 2 find again? hahax! so easy earn.

y m i owaz thinkin of her?! argh! every second lorx. haix. suffering man... don talk bout it le. less burden in my heart. then today in scouts hav 2 go all e way 2 sarimbun scouts camp n help e NPC members 2bring all e structures, pioneering poles, etc back 2 sch. it'll b a very tiring day lorx. especially 2 days ago went west coast wif cousins n ytd got body ache, still hav 2 work in e bycicle shop, after tt go home bathe n go ard ea door n giv out fliers, leg ache lik duno wat man. haix. =x

today shu huey got volleyball trainin... suey! hahax! nw she waitin 4 e stupid bus 2 sch. jus smsed me onli... must tc worx... drink plenty of water n don push urself 2much durin trainin... XD

with loves, 8:30 AM


tags replied!
SHIMIN:k fine... jus joking nia. relax... XD

with loves, 8:27 AM

Saturday, November 29, 2008

吃不能吃 睡不能睡
沒有了你 全都不對
我都學不會 把愛敷衍
用笑容來把眼淚催眠

笑不能笑 哭不敢哭
人不像人 鬼不像鬼
朋友都說這 不過失戀
但我卻連呼吸都膽怯

能不能不愛了 因為愛太痛了
我痛得快死了 卻無法把你忘了
能不能不愛了 愛情它太痛了
我痛得快死了 卻無法把愛割舍
我不能睡

i think i really nd u...
i do not care everlasting lov,
but rather once in my heart b4...

with loves, 1:30 PM

Friday, November 28, 2008

tags replied!
siew shuen: ur welcome!!! XD i added u le... ask tingting to giv me her url oso. soz 4 e l8 links...

with loves, 8:49 PM


another thing 2 add... haix. nw my whole body very pain lorx, aching so much n so hot nw.
i can even hardly move myself n my throat very pain n hot too... how 2survive man?? really suffering badly n there's no1 there 2concern me. sobx... most prob tio high fever le. haix... i think cuz ytd ton wif bro n cousin e whole nite n nv sleep till nw,. tt's y will get fever n wat happen today make me really more sick. goin eat dinner le n i'll b stayin at my cousin house at yew tee... wonder when i'll recover... logging off...

with loves, 7:30 PM


after today's lesson, i confirmed tt relationship cannot b trusted. there's no true lov at all n nobody is meant 2b trusted. every1 tells lies. i'll not trust any1 anymore. 1 of my 'friend' got a new bf, n she was very naive tt they will last long n tt guy was a pk. then she owaz tot tt making lov means true lov n tot tt when one giv a guy her body, they'll b tgr 4eva. but she didnt no tt tt guy was cheatin of her feelins n 1day, they really make lov. then she was afraid tt she'll get pregnant, so she got a pregancy test kit wif her bf n luckily, it was negative. she was told by many ppl tt they've no future at all n jus break wif tt guy.
but after making lov, she got more mesmerised n wouldnt wanna leave him although many ppl hint 2her le. haix... n tt guy said b4 tt if she really got pregnant, he'll take full responsibility. but his attitude sucks, so how is he goin 2take it up??

i think it's btr 4me 2become my old-self n become a flirt so tt i'll not get hurt again. single is owaz e best, no breakups n quarrels! XD h8 2get cheated by ppl le. i ady no tt u don truly lov me, but u insisted, so i gave u a chance, but u blew it off man. e onli person 2depend on is myself. thanks 4givin me my wants although u cant giv me my needs...

love,
-joel-

with loves, 6:00 PM

Sunday, November 23, 2008

yeah... since last mth, my fringe grew lik damn long where i can bite le. hahax! so happy. nw reach till e middle of my chin n below e end of my mouth. it's lik e longest of all times man. then my sideburn reached even longer then my ear by 2cm le, last but not least is my tail whereby reached till e end of my neck le. so long man... so proud of myself.

btw, i got myself a job le n is not i find e lehrx, is ppl invite me do dehrx.
it's $6/hr n my job is help 2repair bike parts n it's a damn easy job... where 2find??
so i'll do jus 5hrs a day can le. XD
another thing. so sad man... i cried lehrx.
shu huey left today 2vietnam. cant chat wif her 1wk liao. T.T
currently mis her so much.
she's lik so special 2me larx. she's my shagua...
my feelins nw is lik so luan, so confused n no amt of pics can describe my feelins tt she's gone...
but hui xian, if u c this, plx do not get jealous, alrite?? XD
u shud no y le bahrx?? XP

love,
-joel-

with loves, 9:10 PM


happy b'day 2u,
happy b'day 2u,
happy b'day 2'choon kiat',
happy b'day 2u!

HAPPY B'DAY 2 HUI XIAN LAOPA!!! XD

here wishin him all e best in his future undertakings n most impt in his career n family

with loves, 9:50 AM

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

ytd damn shiock! played archery! XD
so fun can?! shootin n shootin, suddenly got some kind of competition bet every1. then it's lik OMG! every1 was stunned! hahax! then we tried lorx.
chao yan damn pro, more pro than me, almost everytime shoot bullseye. i think tt's e panther power... hahax! cuz durin e competition, i was e best shooter there n owned them 1st blood oso.
then coach george told me tt i can go further myself in archery. playin in national n international.
n i oso spoiled his yellow target range cuz all my arows hit e middle, got either 9 or 10pts/arrow.
hahax! but it's rather a glory 4 me...
n i really admire him alot man! He's lik my 2nd father n a gd coach. he's oso a gd person. he's oso willin 2 guide me along in archery. i was lik so proud n happy lorx. n he oso trained his eldest daughter, vanessa, 15 this yr oso n went 4 many international competitions n became 28th, i think. position in e world. so li hai man! admire her oso n she's playin compound bow, not lik me playin recurve bow. haix...
hope i can prove myself btr in today's lesson.
i find my scout troop very weird. cuz when i purposely shoot lousy which they duno, they'll say i lan. but when i shoot properly n gd, they'll say i hao lian or tai ko, etc...
damn sianx lorx, then don really feel lik playin le. coach george oso brought me home ytd in his van wif mr ho. hahax! had a gd time talking 2 both of them n it's rather fun.
coach george, ur my idol man! XD u ROX!

with loves, 8:21 AM

Friday, November 7, 2008

Hi Scouts,

Please note that there will be a Pertapis Home Visit this coming saturday. Details below:

NYAA Service - Pertapis Children's Home [8th Nov]
Assembly area: Unity Secondary School
Duration: 0800hrs - 1300hrs
Attire: Half-U
Duty Scouter: Ms. Hamida
Notes:
- This is a combined activity with the Unity Guides
- 2-way transported would be provided
- Please have a proper breakfast before turning up
- Bring some money for lunch and whatever neccessary items you wish to bring there (e.g. water bottle)
- NPC team is NOT required to attend this Home Visit as you would be continuing the training in school.
- Please bring along your NYAA books for those who have. We'll need to get it signed by the authority at Pertapis Home.

Yours-in-Scouting,
QM/JM/APL -Joel-

with loves, 7:49 PM

Saturday, November 1, 2008

today woke up early ard 8.45 n company my bro together wif my cousins 2 polyclinic 4 appointment. then after tt we went 4 our breakfast at jurong point KFC.
then lik so stupid, today onwards, KFC price all increase! so sway lorx. then must pay so much more...
got ppl diao us, then we go make trouble, make them scared us! hahax! so stupid. they so gl can?
there r 4boys, from jurong west sec boys brigade, but duno sec wat... then when we confront them, they all scared lik chicken.
then went home to bathe, after tt went so sarimbun scouts campsite 2 collect crockery for 3 sch of scouts...
my sch, unity pri n dunearn sec.
but then i went alone lorx. supposed to go wif budi n wk, but they cant. then i'll hav 2 take mrt 2 cck, then take 975 to there. then walk bout 10mins then reach e campsite. i'm so lonely n bored can?! it's killing me...
tt time was bout 2.45. ya... helped out giv out cookery oso til bout 5.15. then lucky sir aman n sir adrian there, then got e scout van brought me back home. i got 6 big plastic bags lorx! seriously damn heavy... wif cups, plates, medium n big bowls... sianx.
then i slowly brought up to my house n they left...

with loves, 7:32 PM

Friday, October 31, 2008

today played basketball alone at art park, borrowed a guy's basketball n play...
bought water then went library 2 study my own.
then study till sianx le, then called up sylvia jie n look 4 her...
then played basketball from 2pm to 8pm... damn shiock larx!
then saw jessica there oso. got 2 no another gurl from jurong sec bb team, jieyi...
she damn cute can?! she's a little short n her voice very cute n her face oso. hahax!
s well s ppl A, B n C, etc...
then played many matches, play till got many big blisters. seems lik very long nv play le.
my whole sole so pain n very hard 2 run.
plus my whole body aching, then very tired n lazy 2 even play sometimes.
then met my cousins darryl n terence, then went to my house n stay overnite. XD

with loves, 10:19 PM

Friday, October 24, 2008

Venue: Unity Secondary School
Assembly time: 0815 hrs (Lion Patrol to arrive at 0800hrs to set up flag pole)
Attire: Full Uniform with beret
Camp Chief and 2IC: ASL Shafri & ASL Koon Seng
Notes:
1) All are to have their breakfasts before attending the camp
2) Please note the following compulsory items that you have to bring for the camp. For the rest of the items, I'm sure the Sec 2s would be glad to tell you what to prepare since they have been to many camps before this:

$5 camp-fees for food. We will be catering so no one has to cook.
2 sets of clothing with 1-2 extra T-shirts (for telematches and games. Girls to bring dark tees)
Ground sheet
Water bottle (500 ml at least)
Some extra money for lunch on the 2nd day. Due to a slight change in the program, we'll be cutting short the camp on Sunday to 1pm instead of 3pm.

with loves, 8:25 AM

Sunday, October 19, 2008

haix... i lost my laptop n psp recently. sucks man...
i duno y i so suai...
then my parents ground me lik shit lorx. then cant go out at all. cant do anything. it's lik a bird inside a stupid cooped humid, borin cage. i'd rather go boys home lorx. anyway, i feel lik no ppl cares bout me. i may look happy n a joker in front of my friends, classmates, or CCA mates, but then do they really no how much i'm suffering?
owaz 4 nth get whacked by father.
it's lik whether i do right or wrong, jus get whack. i don think i deserve this can?!
all my ex out there. i don nd ur pity n everything. jus don bother bout me larx! owaz kenna hurt e lorx, n by many factors. my friends, parents, BGR... n this gurl really hurt me alot. y ur jus don trust me?? ur'd rather trust her. i no she's a gurl n i'm a guy. surely she'll use her beauty n attract ur e mahrx... i no u so long le. haix. suan le. i think no mtr wat i say. oso no use.

god, i think i've ady did wat i can 2 help her. but if she doesnt appreciate it, there's nth i can do.
it's up to u whether she'll b rotten or saved. she's in a very big danger nw.
mayb in the end she'll get punished by u oso. haix... she jus likes to lie n backslide...
i duno wat to do ady. i think i'm givin up soon...

with loves, 1:57 PM

Thursday, October 9, 2008

today....!!!
the ending of all my EYE papers!!! so happy. finally can relax le. hahax!
then went to kor house.
went out to vivo city, spent almost the whole day there.
ard 7pm, then went JP shopping. really alot of freedom!
my days w/o regene or can say my history of my ex nw; it's lik really freedom lorx!
then can do watevr i want, then almost everyday wil not quarrel wif her n get angry over her.
she's jus a bitch, i'll jus let God do his work. he's best at it le. hahax!
she's a gurl whom hav a lovely stead but fell in lov wif another 2 guys. i'll rmb tt man!
she's nw a dirty gurl or even b4 i was wif her. got taken advantage by other guys. wat a noob...
she's jus too childish n immature 4 a relationship le.
don even wish to touch her at all man. dirty gurl...

jus mis my kailing laopo very much nw... haix...
everytime wanna go out wif her oso cannot. then everytime she free, go out wif other ppl, then she'll say y nv chio her out where both of ur so free. sianx lorx...
laopo... ur missed n loved!!!

love,
-joel-laogong-

with loves, 10:20 PM

Thursday, October 2, 2008

jus done my sch survey in this com lab jus nw... hahax! then saw regene's n kai ling's survey. then kailing is lik so random can? she sucks lorx. everything put agree... she's crazy! btw, it's shuyu who teach her e! shuyu, don teach bad things to my laopo. XP
then regene is lik so... she lik very negative in her survey. lik so serious bout it lorx.
then act nw shud hav PE lessons can?! then must do this stupid survey lorx. waste out time n effort n money. cuz money cant buy time. heehee...
but gd thing got air-con! shiock man! XD
then i start e survey so much later than afiqah, but then i sat bside her n she haven do finish yet can? so slow dehrx. lousy tortoise!
haix. damn sianx nw. really nth 2 do but enjoying e cold breeze indoor. XP darshan, sufia n liying so kp. go ard look at ppl blog. then stupid black come c mine. sianx... saw afiqah's realtives's blog, then some of her friends n relatives so pretty can?! hahax! i think btr don say le, if not will hav ppl jealous. but i mean nth larx. so don worry bout it. XD

then chatted wif my very 1st stead!!! hahax! so happy lorx! n her lovely name is JANNIZA! once i hear her name, my heart jus melted! hahax! XP then she very down 4 almost everyday, then i spend my precious 2 days moments talking to her s well s to council her oso where she's a sch councillor. then almost everyday quarreled wif her bf. n it's all her bf started e lorx. he's lik so sensitive 2 almost everything n don even trust this lovely gurl n the relationship! u call tt stead?! well, i don think so. jan, jus giv up this guy man. i no u love him dearly, but i jus feel tt he's not e rite1 4u. i think god oso gave u hint le. obey e lord. he prepares all the best 4u. not onli tt, u'll feel more hurt n i'm sure god doesnt want it n i don like it either.

i h8 ppl to bully gurls lorx, especially 4u nw. i no god's words r not 2 h8 any1, but i jus cant take it. then i owaz got kp e msges u sent 2me. quite touching... hahax! here goeqs nth...

"Hey.:) Really thanks alot for just now. Thanks for being there and listening.:) I really appreciate it alot, it means a lot to me too. :) Sleep early ya? :-D" u no wat tt means? she hinting 2 me. hahax! if got chance, i'll upload her pic on my blog n let every1 c her pretty, boloved n CUTE face of hers. her sunshine smile on her face jus melt my heart literally, jus lik the scorching sun melted e cold ice... so lovely... but the our height got difference lorx. i'm lik shorter than her. really feel very inferior... haix... she oso got say really thanks 4 everything. cuz i was trying 2 help her relationship which i don want it at all. hahax! i'm CRAZY!

jan, u'll owaz b loved n missed!!! XD
love,
-joel-

with loves, 9:35 AM

Friday, September 26, 2008

today have my SS paper... haix don really wana talk bout it. duno whether will fail or not lorx.
cause i ytd tried 2 memorise s much s possible but i stil cant concentrate. then today jus have to depend on my memory 4 the past few mths. then finally over le, but duno wat 2 do.
regene called me up n said she cant company me, then she told me today is yvonne b'day, her best friend out of all...

Happy birthday, yvonne!!! XD all the best in ur N'levels n ur day today!

then wait 4 my laopo outside sch, then company her 2 her godma house, then i went 2 lot 1 slack... then saw shuyu, then company her wait 4 her bus at e interchange. then i saw many of my friends lorx. sec 1, 2 n 3...
from my sch n other schs oso... then lik so happy. then slack n slack, saw tim my best buddy, liying n filbert. then we all slack tgr ard the whole lot1. after tt slack at northvale. but b4 tt, i knew a sec 1 gurl over at lot1 oso. then she lik very lonely, then i asked her 4 her hp no. n we chatted, so called kill her boredom s she waitin 4 her friend very long le n e gurl name is siewmin from class 1/2.

then after tt, i went 2 jurong point 2 find rachel, my pri sch classmate, intended to go wif marilyn oso, but then cause she got sth on in sch, then cant make it 4 study... then went to library, then at there eat lunch, then sat there 4 a while, then i send rachel home, then i go home le. then damn shiock can?! almost everywhere, every min c old friends, everytime say hi e lorx. then go home slack. reach home bout 3, then it's lik i end my paper ard 10.

not bad can c my old friends again. ppl,gd luck n al the best 4 all ur papers worx... XD may god bless u 2! XD

love,
-joel-

with loves, 9:47 PM

Thursday, September 25, 2008

hey, laopo! hahax! really hope u'll lik e letter given 2 u. act, i nv 4get ur b'day at all... sorry 4 lying 2 u. T.T i jus wanna giv u a surprise onli. not onli e letter, s well s e ring u owaz wanted wif ur name engraved on it...
today rather happy cuz i very long nv write letter 2 ppl le n she's e 1st one 4 a very long time. then i lik onli giv ring 2 stead, but not friend or gans. s long s ur happy, then i'm happy le. i normally don lik tt treat gurls e kk? i very stingy e, everytime got gurls ask me buy sth 4 them birthday present, but i nv spend any money on them at all. then u must feel honoured lehrx. XD

this's ur sms tt really touches me: "Hey joel thanks 4 the letter n the ring. i l0ve it al0t xDD pls do n0rt starve urself. Sumtimes idk wad u're tinking n do n0t n0 if its true. Bt the letter really t0uched mi.hmm 4 the ... can we talk after exam?"

thanks 4 jus givin me this hope, really hope u'll stil stay s my beloved laopo. XD i very long nv recieve this type of msg le. soz 4 owaz bein emo 2u...
btw, don blame ur father le larx, alrite? no mtr wat, he's stil ur father n he's e 1 whom support u from baby till nw or even further. if ur father don treat u gd, dote on u, concern bout u, then i'll take over lorx. hahax! seems lik i'm ur father lik tt.
n don worry 2 much... i don think regene will get jealous. she's really an understandin gurl. really nv regret choosin her in e past. XD
all e best in ur exams oso. make sure u do well in ur studies, then mayb ur father will dote on u even more n lov u lik hell. u'll nv no. hahax!
then stay back after 1st paper today, then help kailing n shuyu wif her dnt work. finally can fulfil my promise 2 her le. yeah!

then went 2 jurong east KFC wif regene n ask her to teach me n revise my SS exam 4tmr...
then go home le...
kailing, happy b'day 2u! may u hav an memorable day today n everyday will b a btr day than b4. ur missed n loved by ur laogong... XD

love,
-joel-laogong-

with loves, 8:10 PM

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

today ate breakfast wif regene. then duno owaz y everytime after eat breakfast i'll get realy heart ache, really lik so heart-brokened. then owaz ps me cause of her own selfish reasons. haix... then 4get it. cause owaz lik tt, used 2 it le. then today damn slack... almost all lessons sleepin. lik time really fly very fast. durin f&n lesson, nv do hw, then kenna punish, but no kick e lorx.
but then after tt was lower sec recess, then sianx diaox. saw kailing along e way up 2 my class. this time really 1st time ever we face each other. we jus c each other but then didnt bother each other but gave each other a black n emo face. i really duno wat she want, can?! sms her nv reply, call her nv ans, she's lik givin me hell can?! god, plx tell me wat 2 do... i really cant take it le. i seriously don lik e relationship i have wif her nw... sufferin lik shit. argh!!! her b'day comin soon le... i really wana her happy n hav a gd relationship wif her. i'm cryin lik shit nw!!! so stress in sch stuffs n personal stuffs!!! T.T !!! i kind of hate gurls nw. every gurl jus lik tt break my heart. includin my mom oso. today quarrel wif her s she slapped my face 4 e reason of not revisin at home jus nw but watchin tv. i today got study can?! then workout a little while n slept at home, woke up not long ago lorx. T.T gurls out there! i hate u 4 ur 2sided face!!! T.T
my heart really numb le.
i don think any gurls will lik me nw. i will hurt other ppl or hurt myself. it'll b very hard 4 me 2 get into another relationship. i may seem very happy, a stupid joker, but nobody really noes or uds wat my mind is thinking n my feelins...
i really look lik a corpse today. really feel lik smoking but i no i shouldnt do tt. i wanna feel high n 4get everything. i nd another method to relieve myself...
oso quarreled wif regene n it's almost everyday. hate her 4 lying n her pettiness...

hatred beneath my heart,
-numbed-joel-

with loves, 9:28 PM

Monday, September 22, 2008

today went to jurong library...
today duno y so lucky.
almost c every of my friends almost everywhere.
it's lik almost every 5mins will c one lorx. hahax! then had study wif regene, then went 2 KFC n eat, share food...
act, supposed 2 meet kailing oso, but she doesnt want come til jurong east. sobx. really dunno when can fulfil my promise 2 her. i really hate 2 break promises can?!
duno y somehow she so cold 2 me le, everytime nv reply me or reply so l8 e lorx. then lik damn sianx oso...

*really soz kailing laopo... 4 not companying u 2 chiong ur dnt. really soz, other than these sentences, duno wat 2 say le. T.T really very very very very very soz!!!!! plx 4giv me...


did workout today at art park, then got many malay sec2s from different schs praise me 2 e sky lehrx! so happy...
cause i half-naked mahrx, then do cheerleading stunts, wushu stunts n more... not onli tt, i oso pick up think tiles, then karate it usin my hands. then got 6 cuts n quite a no. of blood. OMG!
after tt, i climb trees until bout 3m from ground level, then from there jump down. i sprained my ankle. rest 4 a little while then go home le... nv take photo cause my hp sucks. haix...

then talked 2 anthea from unity, class 1/2 dehrx... she sms me, then called me up, then chatted wif her. she lik damn quiet can?! wat a emo gurl... hahax! hope tt she'll nv c this if not i think she'll kill me. lols... she quite cute sia. hahax! XD

TC, ppl...
love,
-joel-

with loves, 7:31 PM

Saturday, September 20, 2008

hihi... fri went to junction 8 wif my bro, cousin; darryl, n his 4 friends... onli no 2 of them r dion n colin...
this day is lik damn shiock can?!
it's lik we went to meet tgr at junction8, about 3. then went to sakae 4 a buffet s part of lunch n early dinner...
we sat at 2 different tables, my cousin n bro, dion n i sat at the same table n jus start orderin our favourites sushi... then it's lik damn kua zhang lorx!
almost every fried sushi n handroll order 5 or 6 or 8 ea plate... so scary! then eat n eat n eat until rather 3/4 full, then stop 4 a while in round 1.
then we all go outside talk a little walk, 2 faster e rate of digestion.
then we order a red plate ea, cause it's entitled to 1 ea person. then had 2mochi n 2strawberry ea, eat finish le, then order food again 4 2nd round...
we all tgr stack e plates till damn high can?!
really damn tall larx...
then e waiter says nd 2 collect plates n wash plates le cause the restaurant got not enof plates 2 serve other customers. haha. tt means we eat e most! so happy! XD


look so tall but yet so short...

then i think counted got at least 85 plates 2 bout 90 plates... =x with e appetite of 7ppl...
really ate many sushi. then i think got more than 300 sushi bahrx. n i think i eat the most lorx! XP really damn lots of it.
then the nxt 1 is more exciting n funny. haha...
act, b4 we enter the sakae, me n my cousin went 2 e NTUC 2 get empty containers, while e rest went in le...
we get those so tt can pkt away. eat e sushi a big meal, burn more of their pocket.
then colin wanna start orderin food, then stuff the food in his box. b4 tt, he said got container, but cover lost. then say found le, but inappropriate size. then we all laugh lik hell lorx. really damn funny. but in e end, it's e correct size n his container is lik a ice-cream contaiiner! xiao!
then me n my cousin oso started ordering food n packeting away. the whole process is lik damn scary, almost kenna caught by e ppl there. btw, the no. of food haven include e ones pkting away lorx.
then those packeting away i think got at least 30 sushi in all bahrx.
then packet all finish le, then we settle bill n go off le... then lik somehow can c my stomach lorx! so irritating, it seems i got big belly, but it's jus a bloated stomach. eat damn full...=x
eat for more than 2 hrs... XD wat a pig r we... cheeze!

then i oso ate the sushi s my supper jus nw! hahax! so convenient, free n easy 2 eat from fridge! n i'm stayin at my cousin house in bishan.then it's lik so delicious lorx... ;p
but b4 tt, me, my bro n my cousin ton at amk basketball court. i damn pro... shoot 3/4 of e court inside e rim. hahax! cause damn hot, sweating all over... so after playing matches, i did this after tt n went home... cool!
p.s: there were cracks at e board cause i did it when i grabbed e rim n did pull-up... scary...


bein shot inside e rim... this guy got wings n breasts. wahaha... XD

i don think any of e basketball players dare 2 do tt or even try this can?! i'm hardcore!
i'm e kid tt ur mom warned u bout! haha!!! taken by cousin n i even sit rite @ e top of the pole n e rim, but nv take cause spotlight go off le. haix... wasted...

signin off...
-joel-

with loves, 1:30 AM

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

sorry, ppl... very long nv update le... really sorry...
i sat got family bbq... then nv write, then sun got tuition at bishan, after tt i chiong my scouts advance logbook n my hw tgr...
so stress can?
then i almost everyday sleep in class lorx. this really how busy n tired i m...
damn stupid... i this mon wanna replace my ez-link card at cck, but then no photo cannot make. bloody hell. then took photo at jurong point, then go home le.
then ytd go back make again, then the person say nd i/c or birth cert or passport! argh! damn angry, then i beg e person lorx, i normally don beg ppl e, then she's a malay woman, damn fat n ugly, so kao bei, attitude me oso, then i begging again half-way, she heckcare me n shout "nxt plx..." fuck type! then i shout at her "oi~!!" then she diam diam n talk 2 me nicely...
ask her mother shout at her in her office then she no... fuck... sorry, i don speak vulgarity e, but i angry then cant control will say. it's lik wat kind of service attitude she giv lorx, if i really complaint, she sure kenna gan by her boss e can?!
then today brought my pri sch ez-link, go jurong east replace... oso don wish 2c tt bitch face.
then i tot its $7 can?! then brought so called i/c, photo le, but not enof money! argh! damn angry, really angry... e person say it's $19. so expensive can? WTF!!!
haix... today my day is in a whirl... so noob n so suck! hate today...

with loves, 5:22 PM

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Meeting on Friday [12th Sept] - Healthy Lifestyle

Hi Scouts,
Please see below for the meeting details:
Friday [12th Sept] - Healthy Lifestyle Day
Venue: Unity Secondary School
Duration: 1500hrs - 1830hrs
Attire: Full Uniform (Bring PT Kit)
Duty Scouter: ASL Jerome
Duty Patrol / APL: Tiger / Kenneth
Notes:
Meeting this week will be focused on doing a couple of Healthy Lifestyle projects. Most of you have taken and passed your written test paper, but healthy lifestyle is not just about answering questions correctly! As such, please do the following:
- Each patrol is to bring drawing paper (A5 size). During patrol corner, you are to design an Anti-Smoking poster. You must also incorporate the slogan 'Smoke-Free for Life'.
- Surf the internet and print out 3 articles about smoking (patrol effort). One of the articles must come from http://www.hpb.gov.sg/ Bring the articles on friday for discussion.
- Bring your badminton rackets, volleyballs, netballs, basketballs, soccer balls etc to play this coming friday. Everyone must bring their PT kit (tee and shorts). Patrol Leaders please take note. if patrol members available, plx call ur PL 4 info n things 2 do. compulsory by today or tmr straight after sch... thanks...

Yours-in-Scouting,
-APL/QM/JM joel-

with loves, 6:42 PM

Sunday, September 7, 2008

starting on sat, i started my advance hike... bag wif mostly comprises of food instead of clothes s it's a 2 days 1nite hike. e most important in hike or camp is 2 pack light. then it's lik damn sianx can?
my sir say anything extra will b taken from my bag if found after given him the list of items in my bag. then 4got 2 include chips, etc. then kenna confiscated by sir while doin inspection! argh!
then pack finish hao le, then sir giv 2 of my friends n i $10 altogether 4 e 2 days 1nite. XD
then started hiking le... yeah! XD but e sad thing is tt must confiscate 2 phones, onli can hold 1. then i pleaded wif my sir 2 jus not 2 take n use my phone. but he said my hp very valueable although my friend hp is more expensive. the main reason is cause i got many girl's no. , then confirm talk 2 many girls e. humph!

then we all started from our sch at unity sec at yew tee, then we feel tt our food confirm not enof, then we go buy lorx. cause i i/c of f&b, logistics s i'm e quatermaster in scouts. bought extra maggi mee n potato chips, etc.
then ate along e way to Old ford factory shud b at bukit timah bahrx...
started from 7.48 - 9.25am.
then rest a while then started journey again. i top up water bottles for every1, then from 9.40 - 10.43am, reached e former s'pore turf club.
then from there set off at 10.57 - 11.58 to Adam road hospital.
then went 2 a church beside it 4 toilet n water cooler. then got a lady talked 2 us bout christianity. took us some time cause duno how 2 reject her n continue our journey.
then from there, we head to our scouts HQ at bishan from 12.05 - 1.46pm,
then rest there quite a while cause got air-con inside e scouts shop then can rest there oso n chatted wif joey mdm, which is sir caleb cheah's sis-in-law. then i walked ard the HQ 2 look 4 btr water source, then bumped 2 him, he very gd 2 me.
gave me a bag of ice n a very cold drink 4 me. thanks alot n he gave me many scouts collection b4.
then once done, we went 2 the unknown yishun jetty where i reached, i realised i came b4 wif my relatives n family 4 fishing. started at 2.30 - 5.23.
then when reach le, then no water source lorx. haix...
then we jus have to head 2 another checkpoint 2 e s'pore zoo w/o water...
but luckily god lov us n we walked pass a s'pore country club got water. act, we don dare 2 take e cause e toilet very wuloo... then very dirty lorx. then i sacrificed by drinkin 1st n try. then ok.
then we jus take n top up our bottle. headed happily 2 s'pore zoo from 5.36 - 7.44pm.
soon resting here n there, we go to chua chu kang park 4 our rest of e day.

got muscle ache behind my knee, very tough walking. using much difficulty walking.
from 7.55 - 10.53pm. we cooked our dinner maggi mee at bout 11, while changing 2 our half-u.
eat finish le... then was bout 2 sleep n i used my friend's phone 2 talk 2 my ex, regene n my dry laopo, kailing. then all leaders ms erny, ms hamida, sir JEROME, e guy who planned 4 e hike, mr yap, beloved person s well s sir reyza, dunno how 2 spell his name n he's from cckss came 2 c us. then damn sianx. got caught by them. then zhi hao kup e phone. then every1 joked tgr then they decided 2 leave, then we go sleep le... then while i was sleepin,
mr yap n sir reyza got us a pkt of milo ea!!! OMG! i was so touched can?!
thanks, sirs! not onli tt, it's oso sir jeremy's idea... really thanks n appreciated...
i got 2 find out when every1 woke up n wee keong told me bout it.
then e milo is lik so sweet can?! so nice... filled wif love n care n concern oso. very long ppl nv lik tt treat me le. reminds of my childhood... ;-)

then woke up le, in the morning bout 7plus, we cooked 4 pkts of dry maggi mee s our breakfast wif quite many seasoning which is = more MSG.
i rarely take much seasoning cause bad 4 me but then it'd be in gd use s it has quite an advantage...
- MSG can prevent cramps n further cramps when having camp or hike! XD
scouts members plx take note s it's a gd advice n tips when u hav a quest asked by sir...

then changed 2 our full-u, head 2 our 1st checkpoint of e day. bukit batok home 4 e aged which is located at near bukit gombak, in specfic: beside dunearn sec, from 9.05 - 10.30am.
then rest again, went to chinese gardens' garden from 10.38 - 11.57am. reach le then set off again. then headed 2 chinese garden, then lakeside, then boon lay 2 our nxt destination, City Harvest Church... so when we reach chinese garden, all were hungry, then i bought traditional cakes worth $2 n share tgr... eat finish le, then really set off le. from 12.06 - 2.30pm.

then met jerome there s we lack of time le... haix. then sir jerome lik very disappointed wif us cause e 2 days can b completed 3hrs b4 we end everything n we shud hav 1 more checkpoint in e 1st day but took out cause oso lack of time. cause of tt wee keong lorx... haix... abit abit oso complain, say very far, weather very hot, leg pain, here pain, there pian... haix...
really pain in e neck... then go to last checkpoint 2 s'pore discovery centre. from 2.37 - 3.40.
really rest alot n alot of time wasted, nw must depend on e work of my logbook le. haix...
then xiao ming go check e map, act we shud go onli 45km, but then we hiked 55km can?! so angry. haven until 1st class hike lorx. basket!!!

then 1st class onli 45km can? then jerome damn horny larx... i drew all the ckeckpoints tgr, then i got 2 find out tt it's a pic of a sperm lorx!!! xiao eh!!

btw, today made police report le... but then wanna make my ez-link card, but then got 2 no by my kailing laopo tt nd photo which i don hav, then sianx diao n a wasted trip, cant find photo oso. haix... wonder when my probs will be settled w/o my parents knowing it...

gtg le... XD tc, every1! gdnite, sleep tite, sweet dreams!
dunno y suddenly feel lik wanna c my 1st stead, janniza... haix...

with loves, 8:22 PM

Friday, September 5, 2008

1 last thing 2 add...
ytd was oso another type of day...
it's e day which is my ex n i e 11th mth together...
happy but yet disappointing.
i jus treat e sharing of my cooking s a little celebration bet us...
but then it'd b btr if it was kailing... we'll b enjoying n laughing til stomachache lorx. act, i nv patch wif her at all larx... sorry 4 telling this 2u. i think its this reason then ur feeling fade??
i really dunno y will lik tt. i really don wish this feeling of urs 2 fade. really... i may nd it very much. n kailing, when i'm not bside u,plx drink plenty of water horx. don make me owaz remind u. dehydration can cause many things e lehrx... uds? n when ur hungry, must eat. don save money horx n use ur money wisely. don everytime go pastamania or elsewhere. hav sth u think wil full, money spent is worth it n cheap n oso suit 2 ur liking larx. lik visiting food court, hawker centre, etc... u everytime waste money lik throwing money 2 e sea lorx. i'd rather u giv me ur money n i go spend. hahax! then try not 2 visit neoprint shops. those r my advices, if u don wish 2 listen, then it's up 2 u lor.... i'm jus concerned bout u... XD cheer up gurl... b a happy red apple n live ur life happily...

love,
-joel-laogong-

with loves, 10:09 AM


gd morning! hahax! 1st i'd wanna address sth...
i jus wanna say happy b'day 2 my lovely sec1 cousin n here wishing her happy 13 b'day! then act today supposed to go out wif her, wif my cousins n her friends dehrx, but then today got my scouts lorx. damn sianx... but then 4 my scouts, i really hav 2 go cause i've 2 attend a course which it's lik rarely have it n i nd it very much. rarely can say bout 2-5yrs 1time. her celebration is from i think 2 to 5pm... but then i 1.30 have 2 reach sch lorx. so pathetic horx?
then when go sch, i've 2 try my best 2 find my precious wallet, if really cant find, i'll face e music le.
pray n hope sincerely tt god, help me 2 find my wallet, i'm sorry 4 watevr i've done n plx 4giv me, lord... bless me... in jesus name i pray, Amen!
everyday hav 2 buy standard ticket. damn sianx n expensive lorx. then none of my friend got extra card to lend me. then ltr must wear PT kit wif shoes lehrx... h8 to wear shoes. then very stupid can? wear slippers mahrx. then lik so shiock, but 4 e sake of getting my badges i want, i'll hav to wear them.
i'll hav 2 Bring along my writing materials n foolscap paper.

Oso plx bring e necessary items, my petrol n etc...
This course is part of the first class Conservation series. It'll be conducted by Mr Yap, our former scout leader, who has kindly volunteered his time to take up this coursen so far, he's e onli qualified leader 2 conduct this course. so Sec 2s and 3s are strongly encouraged to attend the course. Please pass the word around. thanks...
n those have not taken ur healthy lifestyle badge will have to take it on fri, after ur world conservation course. there may b the nxt 2 tests on observer badge... all plx take note...

Bt Panjang Campfire [06 Sep] - optional
Venue: Unity Secondary School (Assemble at the block opposite by 1800hrs)
Duration: 1800hrs - 2200hrs [NPC team to meet at Dunearn @ 1400hrs - To be confirmed]
Attire: Full Uniform
Notes:
- There will be transport catered from Dunearn Sec to BPGH. Those who want to take a lift can meet at Dunearn by 1730hrs. There will be no chartered bus from Unity since it is pretty near. Do have your dinner first before meeting up.
- The 3 sec 3s who will be going on your advance hike, please contact ASL Jerome for your pre-hike briefing on Friday.
Thailand Camporee Update!
The Thailand camporee will not be cancelled for now since it is still 3 months away. However, HQ is monitoring the situation and would advise the units accordingly. For those who are unsure, you can still submit your camporee forms. Should there be any changes, we'll update you.Those who haven't submit the Camporee Form A are to do so latest by Saturday. Please bring along your Form A, 2 passport sized photos as well as $200 cash payment.

Observer Test Results
Part A (Kim's Game)
Passed: Desiree & Chen Lu
Joel & Xiaoming
Jasper & Chao Yan
Part B (Sound Test)
Passed: Desiree & Chen Lu
Zhu Zhi & Kah Kien
Joel & Xiaoming
Meiqi & Chia Hsuan
Only those who passed both part A & B can move on to part C (incident description) & D (bushman signs).

yours in scouting,
-APL-joel-

with loves, 9:23 AM

Thursday, September 4, 2008

well, today is the day... the day tt i have my f&n execution exam. haix... i really dunno wat 2 say. got gd got bad... the bad thing is tt i did my cooking not very gd in terms of the timing of cooking. i have to do 4 dishes in 2hrs lorx. where got time? lols... then i did cheezy baked macaroni, then prawn cutlets, mint salad n cup custard, but nv do the last 1 cause got no time. so sianx... but wat i'm really rather happy bout is tt i did my macaroni n prawn cutlets a gd job! XD so happy...
1st time do, then not bad ady. i deserve commendation 4 myself. ;-) hope i can get quite gd marks for my execution. then got my cleaning so messed up lorx. must clean e heap of plates, bowls, etc... so irritating n troublesome lorx n it's wat i h8 e most in cooking...

this is my overall cooking... looks yummy, rite?? XD

this is my main course dish. cheezy baked macaroni! XP

this's my side dish: shallow-frying prawn cutlets.

last but not least; my appetizer: mint salad... hahax!

then after tt, i rushed to meet my ex, regene... cause she lov my cooking n misses my cooking very much then i shared my food wif her lorx. oso, she wanted to try my cooking again... then i got quite a compliment from her n she enjoyed my cooking very much, not onli tt, she ate quite fast n was saying delicious every mouth she had... my heart jus melted. i nv do cooking very long, then finally got ppl compliment my cooking was very gd. then she oso say much btr than others. then she oso wanted to packet home 4 herself. hahax! really boosted my confidence in cooking again very much. thanks! XD she jus praised me until i feel i'm floating at mid sky... then another thing she say is if she marry me, she'll b e luckiest girl tt she can enjoy great dishes everyday n she doesnt have to cook at all. n any girl b wif me, they'd b so fortunate cause i can do almost anything... translated from chinese characters: jing e liao chu fang ye chu e liao ting tang. means not onli can cook, can oso do more than a guy's duty n responsibilities. =x

then after tt, i sent her home halfway n i went back home lonely...
then i let my maid, father n mother s well s my bro n cousin try my cooking. they oso compliment me but jus said tt food was a little hard but e reason was the food dries up after the period of time... i think i'll end here le bahrx... XD tc every1... n gdnite...
btw, kailing laopo... thanks 4 a advices u gave me today... lov ya! XD

love,
-joel-

with loves, 10:04 PM

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

i have many things to do ytd durin my scouts meeting...
although the meeting is optional, but i've to come 4 my tests, jobs
in order to achieve my badges. duration was 1030hrs to ard 1800hrs but i can choose to leave anytime. attire will be PT kit. i did many stuffs lorx, then it's lik so sianx n tired. then oso quite shack... i starting play my psp while waiting 4 my sir 2 come n then open e scouts den. when he come le , i stil playin. then he say will conduct e healthy lifestyle proficiency badge. then i think will mostly will pass cause its opn book test which not supposed 2b n my sir wanna save time.

after 45mins of the test, then every1 had a break 4 45mins. so 2 grasp e time n opportunity, me n xiao ming did our jobman service badge my mending 2 floor tiles. at 1st, me n him dunno how 2 go bout it. then make e cement, then started doing the mending. s we it's our 1st time doin it, we approached sir jerome 2 help us, but instead of helping us, he ruined almost everything. do u no y i say tt?

cause he's e1 who test us 4 e job, we confirm pass e, but then the thing is tt he broke 1 tile lorx. haix... but then i think will stil pass cause tt's his fault. hahax! then lik a little happy n worried lorx. then very troublesome. then when finally finish le, then we both did cleaning up n sealed the whole area 2 prevent other ppl to step on it. but then sir jerome said tt whenevr we visit a place, we must leave e place cleaner than b4 when we saw it but onli leave 1 thing which is footprints, so he stepped on the most cement part of it, then got his stupid hongkong shoeprints. damn angry cause very nice n white le, then become so dirty... so upon cleaning up, we went to have our lunch... XD finally but onli given 30 mins. but btr than nth...

so i n xiao ming went to yew tee food court. he ate mixed rice n i ate black carrot cake. very very full, not onli tt, xiao ming went downstairs b4 eating, go buy bubble tea. we share milo n mango ice-blended. soon after tt, we went back 2 sch...
so when we go back, sir says wanna start our observer badge le.
then tyco pass part A n B. it's jus a mark away where we have to guess the sound of an animal...
it's lik a pig laughing lorx... so weird! ~.~

then for our Advance hike, we are to explore our own district and draw a simple map showing important landmarks and amenities. It should cover 2-3km in radius. Map to be submitted before the hike else it'll be a no-go. then it's lik so stress can?
then i oso dunno how to draw. we lik no nth bout it lorx... then got a briefing wif jerome. then take my stupid 1st class standard 1st aid (3). so damn tough. kp failing lik shit. btw, this sat n sun have to go 4 e hike. then must bring e lit of items not less or more, if not, will straight away fail, then don nd go le so there'll be inspection b4 e hike.

so s e time goes by, i jus found out sth tt shocked me very much lorx!!! haix... really damn sad n disappointed n it goes to sir jeremy tt some1 in scouts will steal stuffs from scouts den. alessia lost her precious mp3 player but me, haix... i lost my whole WALLET!!!
i don even dare to tll my parents yet lorx... i still duno wat 2 do. then i reported 2 sir, i asked almost every1 n nobody found it. then sir say will giv lecture tmr le, i think. i'm lik feel so down n lost... then my wallet got my ez-link card, my I/C, some money which total less than $10. then oso the photos i had wif my ex. sobx...
if i evr get to no who took my wallet, i confirm will not let him/her off e lorx. but mostly is a guy. humph! i'll c how it goes lorx, if really cant find by tmr, i think i'll tel my parents bout it. at most get scoldings n a few slappings n freedom a little lorx. haix... this carnage n devastation was wat my mind couldnt comprehend... my mind is full of tots where nth cud explain this thinking. so unbearable n so anxious... i spoke to my ex bout it lehrx... haiz. i tot i got scoldin by her, then i shouted at her. regene, i'm sorry bout it i n no tt ur worried. really sorry. 4giv me...


i'll jus have to wait 4 my doom... T.T

-joel-

with loves, 9:14 PM


hmm, this is for my mildred mei... XD
hey,mildred, thanks 4 helpin me creating this blog...
really thanks n really appreciated!!! XD

my mei is so loveable, so cute n helpful, not onli tt, she owaz lend me her listening ear. i think she's my best mei i've evr had... any1 can fight her? haha... try come replace her in my heart. u'll nv no when u'll succeed. XD whenevr i had quarreled wif my ex, regene, she'll owaz b e 1st 1 who b my side consoling me, encouraging s well s cooling me down. really lov my mei very much. it may sound mushy larx, but then it's all e bottom of my heart. but onli sibling's lov, nth else...
it's jus some of my ex photos...


wat a chio bu!!! XD

this really attracts me alot! boo!!! hahax!

mature gurl wif her beloved bro...

but not 2 oso 4gettin my laopo kailing...
missing her evryday lorx.
i jus find tt everytime i'm wif her, i'd feel so relaxed. not onli tt, she'd everytime b so retarded tt will make some lame jokes n we'll laugh tgr... very happy. i feel i'm e happiest guy in e world. thanks laopo 4 all the things tt u've done 4 me which applies wat mildred mei did too. really appreciated very very much. i'll nv 4get this lovely laopo. many ppl say she act cute. but in reality, she DOESNT!!! her innocence n lovable character, attitude actions, speaking, really melts my heart sometimes. makes me wanna go close to her. dunno y. so ppl, plx believe me. kailing is really cute in natural. here's some photos taken from her... XD so lovable...


ur my sunshine, my onli sunshine XP

trying 2 act punk! humph!

took this photo 4 her when she wore my jacket...

even when she's emo, stil looks so cute XD

OMG! plx do not electrify me! i'm gonna b attracted...

this's so much lik a cat lorx. really melts my heart.

when she tells me tt some ppl spam her blog, she was so heart-brokened whereby the ppl r her gd friends n they jus back-stabbed her 4 no reason, saying her act cute, even worse, say her got down syndrome. when her heart breaks, my heart follows...
n thanks to some ppl 4 e encouragement n console for kailing, making her comfort. wondering how is my laopo nw... sometimes, i oso got mis my ex, regene... i stil cant 4get her s she left her shadow in my heart. haix... kailing, don worry oh! from nw on, i'll protect u from any harm when i can, not letting any1 hurt u or anything 2 pull u back. if u nd me, i'll try my best 2 company u s i can read ur mind no mtr wat lorx... XD kailing laopo, u r 1cool cat, u've got a little bit of this n a whole of tt. so come on nw, lets hav some fun... hahax! must take care owaz oh XD don owaz make ur laogong worry 4u n 2 my ex oso n my bao bei mildred mei... ;-) love ur owaz... XD

love,
-joel-

with loves, 8:35 PM




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