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Saturday, September 5, 2009

don like to quarrel wif her. but she lik forcing me can? i noe she doesnt want it and its like indirectly lor. waited for her hrs n she wait till she finish her band then tell me to go home. can u ppl imagine how i feel?! it's devastating! infuriating n everything! fuck man! u guys shud noe i hate to use vulgarity but i'm rly damn frustrated. i mis my friend, very close friends. i mis all of u! nabei! just don push me to the corner where i jus heckcare my future n do the stuffs i hate to do an its stupid. wana die. but tks my little friend for telling me not to die. i appreciate it alot. although i'm not very close with u, but u touched my heart. thanks man. i'd lik to say tks to jie n kor for supporting me morally for eveything n bring me to christ. although i may not be a gd christian, not showing a good testimony to ppl, but i'm trying my best.
i seriously feel lik commiting suicide or do the stuffs which offend the law. this minuscule life of mine is so fuck up. i noe ur eng good la. so? do i giv a damn? u're always looking down on me. i noe i suck. deep down in my heart has a crack. waiting for u to mend it, but u tried ur best to split open my spectum n it's very hurting, its jus lik a surgeon using a surgical knife to pierce through my fast-beating, zealous heart. this insidious problem spreads to my whole body without u noticing, causing great damage to my body system. i was perpetually disabled by lots of stuffs. life is so meaningless. i onli noe one thing is tt i'm born not to have wat i wany or need, but rather actually a need to make fellowship with god. i read this in kor house. i thought tt i cant live life w/o u. but then again, i remembered albert einstein once said,"only a life lived for others is a life worthwhile". that aptly described how i should live. woman are nth but trouble, the cause of everything. in living for others, i should live for myself in the best way possible, not by hurting myself or do stupid stuffs that are not worthwhile.
hope u'll nv read it. i don wish u to get hurt. jus leave all the hurt to me. as long u live happily, i'm contented. if god can be gracious n unselfish, so can i!
i cant sleep. just stop all ur attitude. it's not working. its pissing the ppl ard u. i realise u oso 2-faced. treat ur friends with smiles. but me? having fever, running nose, heavy coughs for these past almost a week, feeling so lethargic, etc. i jus treat nth happen to me so that i don wana u worry too much. i'm always the one who giv in to u, since when will it be ur turn? nvm. why am i saying all these? wth. u wont treat me lik wat i want. keep dreaming, joel chin! tt day will never come...

with loves, 11:46 PM




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